Love this blog on everything rustic and vintage on a budget. I just scored some of their amazing mini bread boards. I plan on getting more for gifts. You can even have each board engraved with up to 10 letters. Sweet!
This is inspiring me to get my creative via my i-Phone photos. Who knew creativity and tech could be so fun and easy?
I am SO grateful for this website as I now have both kids in school and my oldest is needing lunches everyday. The lists of recommended lunch gear saved me hours of research and the meal ideas and pics help with quick and easy planning. Exhale.
This is an important post on bright girls, bright boys, and (re) defining perfectionism and being good enough.
Many of you can finish the sentence above with a variety of descriptors and attributes. The core beliefs about your identity directly impact how you make decisions in your relationships, at school, work, and in life.
Culture, your family of origin, your faith community, schools, and places of work are constantly communicating messages about your worth and value.
Some of these messages are negative and challenge your ability to see your true worth and value.
And at some point, you start believing some of the negative messages shifting your lens on yourself and the world.
You are not alone. We all wrestle with negative core beliefs about our identity. Sometimes these negative beliefs are screaming at top volume between your ears while other negative beliefs are a quiet whisper that nag at you daily.
Regardless of the volume, inaccurate core identity beliefs can lead to unsafe and broken relationships, isolation, eating issues, addictions, chronic pain, depression, and anxiety.
Usually our negative beliefs come from experiences in our story and have taken root in our brains in an effort to keep us safe but end up working against us. Most of these negative beliefs fall into one of the following categories:
build awareness on how you respond when you are seen in ways you desire and fear
narrow down the core negative beliefs that are keeping you stuck in your relationship with yourself, God, and others, launching you into the process of reclaiming your true identity, worth, and value.
For those seeking to dig deeper and and get unstuck with struggles around your core identity, I recommend finding a practitioner certified (or in process of certification) in EMDR. This is a powerful psyhchotherapeutic approach that has changed the way I conceptualize cases, approach trauma and all distressing life events. You can find a local practitioner in your area here.
Space is limited at our upcoming (re) define Identity workshop on September, so register soon if you are interested.
We cover this material more extensively in our cornerstone Workshop: (re) define Courage: Dare to Show up+Be Seen (formerly Cultivating Courage).
Our September Weekend Intensive has sold out but there are still spots available in the Nov 1-3 weekend intensive. January dates for weekend intensives and weekly workshops will be going live soon. Sign up here to be the first to know about these dates.
Enjoy the last days of summer and all the best to those transitioning back to school!
Be the Gift. Give yourself the gift of forgetting about yourself, the to-do lists, the plans, the appointments, the shoulds and have-tos. Thank you, Ann, for this heartfelt reminder. I needed it this weekend.
Never, ever, ever forget: You are Loved. Thanks to Jeanne Oliver Designs for bringing this to my attention. Blessed.
Beautiful, grounding, convicting. Read this and then take note where you feel your heart tugged to redirect how you spend your time today.
Darling is taking orders for their fall issue. Order now and receive their latest print magazine full of beautiful photo shopped-free pictures, lovely words printed on gorgeous paper and receive the digital version as a free bonus.
Here is more brilliance from Barn Owl Primitives (where I purchased the We Can Do Hard Things sign seen as you enter my therapy office). These are words that I want to flow out of my heart to my kids – especially during this season of preparation for and transition to school and the big, big world. May we all live these words and not just say them. Actions indeed speak louder than words.
No, juicing is not an eating disorder but for some it can be a disordered eating ritual masked in the spirit of healthful living. I appreciate this honest and humorous perspective of a world where the efforts to be healthy are sometimes a bridge to orthorexia (the obsession with eating healthy) and, well, deep hunger. Now head over to Kayla’s Q&A with Megan on juice cleanses for some facts on this practice.
A common area of struggle I see in my office is managing the in-betweens of life: relationships, jobs, school, physical health, and so on. Jeff Goins’ new book will encourage and challenge you to savor your in-betweens. The tension created in times of waiting can be the catalyst for our best art, so slow down and do not rush your in-betweens.
If we spend a lifetime trying to distance ourselves from the parts of our lives that don’t fit with who we think we’re supposed to be, we stand outside of our story and have to hustle for our worthiness by constantly performing, perfecting, pleasing, and proving.
Brené Brown – Hustle for Worthiness
You are living your life on the sidelines when you:
are trying to make sure everyone approves of you. “Everyone” has differing views, opinions, and needs, so it is exhausting to try and keep “everyone” happy. And since it is impossible to please “everyone”, the hustle is perpetuated.
are hiding parts of your story for fear of rejection and judgement. Your story is YOUR beautiful mess and glory-of-a-story. When you deny speaking and living your story and delegate your worth to “everyone” else, you end up missing out on true connection, healing, and joy.
are avoiding dealing with deep soul pain (or even surface wounds) for fear it will leave you alone or cause you more pain. Hustling for worthiness is an excellent numbing agent to fear, shame, pain, and keeps you from reaching out and asking for help. But this hustle is not sustainable and can become a gateway to some serious issues emotionally, physically, relationally, and in your faith journey.
believing the lies that you are not worthy of love and belonging. This is the ultimate lie of shame. And when this belief is driving the motivation behind your thoughts and actions, then you are living life on the sidelines but deeply longing for a sense of worth and belonging – for which you are hardwired.
At this workshop, we gather together to view an exclusive video of Brené Brown sharing her powerful research on perfectionism, shame, and vulnerability. Participants enjoy a lovely spread of food, a stocked art bar for creative inspiration, and a journal to use to take notes and document reflections.
What makes this workshop unique?
Hustle for Worthiness is different from our other workshops in that it intentionally does not have a lot of structure. This is our introductory workshop offered in a safe and casual community. The video we show is not available for purchase, so this is one of the few venues in which you can view it.
Who should register?
A lot of people attend this workshop because of their connection to me, one of the members of the Potentia team and/or their connection with Brené’s powerful message.
Friends, family, significant others are welcome. You do not have to be a client of Potentia to attend. Part of the power of this work is that it brings us together. Connection and community help you put into practice your shame resilience skills.
If you have mustered up the courage to come alone, please say hello. I think you’re freakin’ amazing! Just the act of showing up to a group where you will be seen is vulnerable and brave and proves you are tired of living your life on the sidelines.
Is this workshop only offered in San Diego?
For those of you in SoCal, I would love to see you at our next Hustle for Worthiness Workshop. It usually sells out, so make sure to register soon if you would like to join us.
If you do not live in the area, I am happy to connect you to someone in The Daring Way community who could facilitate a workshop for your community. Just send me an email at firstname.lastname@example.org.
Every time our Potentia team hosts this workshop, I find it truly magical to see people take in Brene’s words and feverishly write down the powerful nuggets that spoke to them. Expect to exhale deeply, laugh out loud, and elbow your friend knowingly. It happens every time!
Note: HFW alumni who want to bring a friend, your registration fee is on me. Just email me at email@example.com as I only have a limited number of slots available for alumni.
PS – And do not forget to register soon if you want to attend. This workshop is expected to sell out. And for every workshop you register for in the month of August, you receive an entry to win a $100 Anthropologie gift card.
For the last several years, I have started writing posts about the mixed messages of celebrating eating contests and the dangerous impact reverberated by these mixed messages – but I have never finished them. This year, I am pushing back on my unhealthy perfectionism and finishing a post I started earlier this month. I hear the PR voice in my head saying it is too late and the peak for sharing this has passed.
Well, so be it.
The fourth of July is one of my favorite holidays. I am a fireworks fanatic and this year we brought both of our kids to watch the glorious display of firework fun in the sky. This holiday is a lovely time to rest, play, and celebrate.
But one tradition around this holiday frustrates and concerns me: Nathan’s Annual Hot Dog Eating Contest and the many iterations that have followed its popularity. Some of my friends and family think I am a bit of a buzzkill for not being a fan of this kind of eating. Such is my life as an eating disorder specialist – I cannot unlearn what I know about the physical and emotional dangers of binge eating and Binge Eating Disorder (BED).
You may have no obvious physical signs or symptoms when you have binge-eating disorder. You may be overweight or obese, or you may be at a normal weight. However, you likely have numerous behavioral and emotional signs and symptoms, such as:
Eating unusually large amounts of food
Eating even when you’re full or not hungry
Eating rapidly during binge episodes
Eating until you’re uncomfortably full
Frequently eating alone
Feeling that your eating behavior is out of control
Feeling depressed, disgusted, ashamed, guilty or upset about your eating
Experiencing depression and anxiety
Feeling isolated and having difficulty talking about your feelings
Frequently dieting, possibly without weight loss
Losing and gaining weight repeatedly, also called yo-yo dieting
After a binge, you may try to diet or eat normal meals. But restricting your eating may simply lead to more binge eating, creating a vicious cycle.
(Notation from Rebecca: Many fall somewhere along the spectrum of BED. You do not need to have all of these symptoms to struggle with the issue. Denial, minimizing, and rationalizing often keep people from getting the help they need because they do not feel like it is that serious.)
5 reasons eating contests hurt our collective psyche around food
1. Eating contests give the impression that binge eating is always a choice. As of May, Binge Eating Disorder is now a clinical diagnosis in the new DSM-V. This is a huge victory for those who struggle with these issues along with those who are passionate about treatment and advocacy. Prior to BED officially being placed in the DSM -V, there was a lot of controversy around whether this diagnosis should be included; many thought this diagnosis was making excuses for those making bad choices. If this struggle was simply fixed by a choice, there would not be millions of people struggling with this serious issue. Addressing core issues such as attachment wounds, anxiety, depression, distressing life events and traumas, perfectionism, shame, and identity issues are at the heart of this struggle, not a simple choice. The choice available to those with BED is reaching out and asking for helping instead of staying stuck in the cycle of shame, pain, isolation, and physical distress.
2. Eating contests make BED and related behaviors a joke and sport to many. We laugh. We cringe. We build up the hype. It is a business and we are buying into it. This recent Forbes post on whether eating contests should be considered a sport noted:
“While spectators question the validity of such a label, its organizers say there is no confusion – competitive eating is a serious business in the world of sport.”
Man Vs. Food with Adam Richman (I confess, I adore Adam — he is so endearing!) is a perfect example of eating as sport. Adam travels to a new town each episode to discover a city’s best sandwich or meal and then engages in a restaurant’s food challenge by eating an insane amount of food in a designated time period. People are around him cheering him on as he takes his body on a dangerous episode of binge eating — for all the world to watch.
But my work with people on the disordered eating spectrum has taught me food competitions do great harm to our collective understanding of eating disorders and related health issues. This double standard keeps people struggling with BED spectrum in silence, fear of reaching out for help and making binge eating behaviors a joke. A sport.
Binge Eating Disorder is not a sport. Though many who participate in these eating contests may not fit the clinical diagnosis of BED, many of the behaviors mirror this serious illness. When we make binge eating cool to watch, we decrease the seriousness of this issue. It is time to stop the jokes and change the dialogue around this issue.
As long as we are watching, cheering on, and participating, eating contests will be good for business. And bad for health – mind, body, and soul.
3. Binge eating is very hard on your body. If you have ever seen the line-up at Nathan’s Hot Dog Eating Contest, you can see a representation of different ages, genders, and sizes of those who down dozens of hot dogs in a matter of minutes. Physically, binge eaters are at risk for developing: type 2 diabetes, gallbladder disease, high cholesterol, high blood pressure, heart disease, certain types of cancer, osteoarthritis, joint and muscle pain, gastrointestinal problems, sleep apnea, and other related health concerns. Professional binge eaters have the same health risks as those who are clinically struggling with BED. This is not something to be celebrated or perpetuated.
4. We have become obsessed with talking about food and eating contests just add to this unhealthy obsession. Food is personal and how we choose to feed ourselves is a very vulnerable topic. How we eat, what we eat, when we eat, and where we eat are all hot topics that can breed food shame and discord instead the joy of breaking bread with family and friends. Eating contests (and most reality shows for that matter) encourage us to become professional judgers and blamers. We talk about “good food vs. bad food” as if we are talking about sinning or staying pure; we Instagram our meals with a sense of awe and worship; the latest trends in eating, dieting, health dominate the majority of our conversations. We are obsessed with food. This obsession masks core issues of identity, worth, shame while fueling anxiety and depression. And the resistance to looking deeper is intense – understandably as it is much easier to talk about food than the messy, vulnerable, deep soul stuff.
5. Eating contests are a waste of food when so many are food insecure in our country and our world. In our country alone, food insecurity impacts about 15% of households. I often wonder about the positive impact companies and businesses that promote eating contents could make if they took their resources of time and money and fought hunger instead. We can change this demand by choosing not to watch and not to participate – which will shift how companies spend their advertising dollars.
Post your feedback below and let me know what you think about eating contests? Do you think binge eating is just a choice? I look forward to your thoughts on this controversial subject.
Happy belated 4th of July (take that perfectionism!) –
5 years ago today, Potentia Family Therapy, Inc. was officially incorporated in the state of California. After writing a (big) check to the state, I was given a fancy binder with some very official paperwork. I had a notebook full of ideas and dreams. My first child was a little over two months old, my husband was moving to a new school, and life as I knew it was very different. Blessed, full, and amazingly different.
Five years later, my family has grown from one to two kids, my husband has expanded the AP History program at his school (and is moving to a new AP prep this fall) and Potentia is now in a gorgeous space – home to a team of incredible professionals dedicated to helping people heal their relationships with food, their bodies, and their stories.
At Potentia, our team has high standards of care. We believe our clients deserve:
the best in clinical, legal, and ethical practice
healing (in their own time)
Words cannot do justice to the courage, the sacrifice, the character, the growth, and the miracles we get to witness at Potentia. Thank you to my friends, family, colleagues, mentors, contractors, and all those who have helped shaped Potentia from dream to thriving practice. You all simply amaze me. (You rock!) I am also grateful for this calling God has put on my heart which daily strengthens my faith.
But for now, we want to celebrate Potentia’s birthday! And what is a birthday without gifts?
Head over to Potentia’s Facebook Page and leave your birthday wishes to Potentia under the birthday post to enter into our birthday giveaway. Three winners will be chosen at random to receive a special mid-summer gift bag including a copy of Darling Magazine’s summer issue (which contains an article I was honored to contribute), sunscreen, lip gloss, a towel, and some other cool Potentia schwag.
Comments received up until 11:59PM today – July 16th, 2013 – will be eligible for an entry. UPDATE: We are extending this one more day until 11:59PM July17th. Yay!
On my way to Potentia earlier this week, I listened to an interview on NPR with Dr. T Berry Brazelton. He is known as the “baby whisperer” and has been a go-to resource for parents for six decades. You can catch the whole interview here.
Towards the end of the interview, Dr. Brazelton shared about an encounter with a women in a grocery store.
It took my breathe away.
Dr. Brazelton saw a women struggling with her 2 year old while grocery shopping. The mother then began hitting her screaming child. In seeing this, Dr. Brazelton walked up to the mother and said, “It is so hard… to take a two year old to the grocery store.”
After those words, the mother immediately started to cry. She held her toddler and they began to reconnect and repair. The child even started to wipe the tears off of his mother’s face.
“It is so hard…”
This story gripped me in so many ways.
Spoken words in time of vulnerability, fatigue and overwhelm were medicine for this mom.
Instead of judgement, she received compassion.Instead of chastising, she received kindness.
And healing began immediately between mother and child.
I was so touched and convicted listening to the recollection of this story – as I have been judged and can also be the judger.
I have felt the judgements, seen the eye rolls and heard the whispers of critique about me or my children.
I have also stepped on my high-horse of “I am right. You are wrong.” when all someone needed was a hug and to be heard.
At Potentia, I regularly hear about experiences of condemnation, self-loathing, rejection, isolation, abandonment and the aftershocks these experiences have left on their hearts – rocking their souls.
It takes immense courage to speak of such pain. It is so hard…
being a parent
recovering from food and body issues
sitting in the aftermath of a failed marriage or relationship
feeling lonely and disconnected
trying to heal from depression, anxiety
being the person you are called to be
taking a stand
feeling like no one understands
asking for help
giving the undeserved gift of grace
receiving the undeserved gift of grace
believing you not an exception to God’s grace, love and sacrifice
not letting shame corrode your sense of worth and purpose
healing from sexual, emotional, physical abuse
forgiving yourself for being relentless in beating yourself up.
It is so hard to be human.
When times are tough, self care is down and the worst parts of ourselves come to the surface – we can feel unlovable, make bad choices, do harm to self or others.
And in those moments, we can choose to add to someone’s pain or help relieve it.
When we find ourselves in the dark zone of the messiness of life and are offered the hand of grace through kind words or gestures, we can choose to receive it instead of shutting down.
I think what made Dr. Brazelton’s words so powerful and able to penetrate this woman’s heart was his sincerity and the tone of his voice. He was disarming and genuine. Not condescending or patronizing.
But by the grace of God can I strive to live a life that facilitates healing and forgive myself promptly when my quick tongue rises up to judge someone or myself.
These words: grace, compassion, kindness – are words we are all drawn too. But to really live these words and put them into action takes guts. And tenacity. And the willingness to mess up and not be perfect.
I see this courage and determination in my office everyday. I see it in my kids and in my husband.
Just imagine someone approaching you with respect and kindness during a time of exposed “raw and real”.
And what if we stopped the eye-rolling, the judgemental thoughts, the whispers under our breathe but still loud enough to be heard?
And think of what our little worlds of influence would be like if we REALLY lived grace instead of judging and the distancing “tsk tsks”.
We judge in the areas we are most vulnerable. Fear drives these kinds of judgements. Getting clear on your vulnerabilities can help you be a vessel for healing in your own life and in the lives of those around you.
Giving compassion to self and others+receiving the undeserved gift of grace is like a cool glass of water on a hot day.
We are all in the desert doing the best we can.
It is so hard. Trust me. I know.
I may not know your specific experience but I know what it is like to be out there, exposed, afraid and broken.
And I am where I am at today because I have received from others, myself and God the permission to be a hot mess and find redemption in my mistakes.
Self-loathing is culture’s homeostasis and it is simply not sustaining.
It takes living from a place of love, confidence, selflessness and respect to be the person to give compassion as Dr. Brazelton did.
And love bombs like the one Dr. Brazelton dropped on the mother in the grocery story can create sustaining change in our world.
I have received love bombs this week from my friend Madison who came to help out my family while my husband was on a work trip. And words of affirmation came my wayvia emails from Nancy and Lauren and a voice mail message from Marc – all of which brought tears to my eyes.
I was struck at how their kind word and gestures were difficult to receive. But I sat with their love bombs – and they quenched my thirst to be seen and understood.
So my challenge to you this week is this: drop some love bombs in your world of influence. At least three.
Your love bomb may be an email to someone, a phone call, a text. You may go old school and write a letter. Whatever you do, keep these words in mind: It is so hard… And remember – Less is more. Tone is key. Let empathy – not distancing sympathy – guide you. And let us know about your experiences in the comments below.
I would also love to know about any love bombs that have been dropped on you lately. Were they hard to receive? How did you receive them?
Cheering you on –
PS. Potentia’s cornerstone workshop – Cultivating Courage – is an incredible place to get clear on your vulnerabilities, work on rewiring judgements and building resilience to shame. We believe this work is a game-changer in how we do all aspects of life. I would love to see you at one of our future workshops. Please email me at firstname.lastname@example.org with any questions or post them below.
In my tribe of Eating Disorder Treatment Specialists, we often say negative body image is the first to come and the last to leave in the treatment of food and body issues.
And that is a pretty constant truth from the many recovery journeys I have witnessed over the years.
My clients have taught me some more nuanced facts about body image, regardless of whether they have had a full blown eating disorder or not.
Everyone has (at least) a bad body image day.
Depending on where you fall, if at all, on the disordered eating spectrum, dealing with dark, obsessive, and/or negative thoughts and compulsions regarding your body is a part of the gig when dealing with disordered eating.
You may recognize all too well some of these reccurring negative thoughts used to bully and shame yourself – just fill in the blanks with your own words to customize these statements to your experience:
My ____ is so ____.
I feel so ______.
I am so ______.
My _____ looks so ____.
I just need to___.
When I _____ I will be _____.
I hate my_____.
My _____ will always/never be_____.
So many try to manage these thoughts and feelings by stuffing them and putting on their “I love my body” and “It’s all good” masks of virtue, hiding the truth that they are living at war with their body. Others externalize these thoughts and add to the cacophony of negative body talk and diet talk.
And this is where things often spiral.
Many try to manage the pain of being in their skin and their body shame by:
mindless, emotional eating
all of the above
And this can lead to a dark journey into the world of eating disorders and disordered eating. Yet, many hover in this place of emotional ickiness where they cannot shake the uneasiness of living in their skin and make genuine, though harmful, attempts to get relief.
For many of you, this battle really is not about your body.
If my client is stable emotionally and physically, and her needs are met nutritionally, then I often look at negative body image as a sign of something bigger.
Like when you get that scratchy throat feeling. It is a sign you are on the verge of getting really sick; it is not just about the sore throat. You know you need to rest, to take some extra Vitamin C, drink some tea, ask for help with projects, cut back on your social calendar.
When the yuck of a bad body image moment comes up, it is often a sign of something else going on in your life. I move my clients away from the laser focus obsessions on what needs to change with their body and pull back the blinders to look at what else is going on in their life.
If you are feeling this way, it is important to asses:
if you are you getting enough rest,
how you are adjusting to weight restoration or weight loss (yes, weight loss can be very triggering)
social support — safe, sustainable, available social support
if you daily activities are life giving or draining
traumatic or distressing life events that have gone untreated
if your temperament is perfectionistic, obsessive-compulsive, cares big, and feels emotions intensely
labs taken within the last month and making sure all physical systems are operating well and your body’s needs are being met
I have learned that setting the expectation to always be comfortable in your skin is a set up for continual frustration and feelings of hopelessness. (Not helpful…)
The key is not to focus on the goal of eradicating negative body image days (though the parallel process is to decrease the frequency and intensity of those days, for sure) but instead to respond on those days, weeks, months when you are feeling crappy in your skin DIFFERENTLY.
Instead of defaulting to negative food and body obsessions and action, I work with my clients on how to acknowledge what they are really feeling and what they are really thinking in that moment.
Then we focus on respectingthose thoughts and feelings in the moment. I also emphasize the truth in how my clients feel. What they feel is always real but rarely is it ever fact.
Finally, we focus on how to respond differently when body hatred arises. Instead of stuffing, minimizing or denying — which only fuel the negative thoughts and coping tools — I work with my clients on accessing new tools and strategies when the dreaded body yuck surfaces.
When there is too much focus on feeling better in your body and not looking at the correlation with bad body image to other factors — physical, emotional, social, and spiritual — then I think we are limiting the potential of experiencing true health and true healing.
And it is ok not to love your body all the time.
But I think it is imperative to focus on respecting your body and being grateful for your body — even when you do not like it.
You can actually dislike your body while also showing your body respect and gratitude. Eventually, respect and gratitude will win if you hang in there.
For example, there are a good handful of people I know that I do not care for but I respect them, treat them with dignity and kindness, and find space for being genuinely grateful for the challenging relationship.
Consider this strategy in your relationship with your body.
With heavy doses of respect and gratitude in addition to responding differently to your bad body image days, the feeling of your body never being enough may dissipate, and an eventual truce with your body may be declared.
And if one of those days surfaces again, the hope is you do not shame yourself for backsliding in your recovery but see your body image woes as a clue, a hint to investigate what is out of sorts in your life.
All the while administering generous doses of respect and gratitude.
How do you deal with your bad body image days?Do you agree that it is not realistic to achieve a space where you never have a bad body image day?
in your pain, your brokenness, as you nurse your scars. You are not alone. We need to hear your story and give witness to your healing journey. Because then we do not feel as alone in our own pain and brokenness, garnering inspiration to start/continue our own healing journey.
Show Up + Be Seen
as you celebrate your victories, true love, accolades and promotions. Stand firm, do not shrink and do not shout. Just. stand. firm. as you share all the good things happening in your life with your circle of support who will gladly do a happy dance with you.
Show Up + Be Seen
look fear in the eye and speak your truth. We need to see you live a life of courage. It is contagious and our world needs to catch more courage.
Show Up + Be Seen
as you forgive, are forgiven, and begin the marathon healing process involved with forgiveness. Whether you have been betrayed, been the betrayer or both — the complex path of forgiveness is a winding but so important path to stay on for as long as you are alive.
Show up + Be Seen
as you find your voice, push back the lies and lean in to your dreams. Edit the naysayers out of your life and mute the drill sergeant between your ears. Our dreams are inspired by the One who has a plan for you and me beyond our comprehension. Go big. Go small. Just keep going for the dreams oozing out of your heart to help make this planet a better place.
Show up + Be Seen
when you mess up, make up, feel emotions in all their glory. We need more people who shed the mask of “I have it all together” to reveal their humanity. Wholehearted living is scary but it is truly living.
Show up + Be Seen
on your best side, your worst side — without the screens. Vulnerability and authenticity are gorgeous; though they may not feel safe, they sure provide the best light to showcase your precious story.
Show up and Be Seen
as you let go of cool, sophisticated, and polished so your inner goof ball can get some air time. Laughter, lightheartedness, and silliness are good for your soul.
Show Up + Be Seen
when others are scoffing, judging, disconnecting. Hold your head high, give grace, receive grace, and rally around your safe people as you regroup from the mean, unjust aspects of the world we live in.
Show up + Be Seen
because your life matters. Your voice matters. And the world needs you to live the life you are called to live.
Show up + Be Seen
reaching out, asking for help, digging deep. Stay steadfast. Do not give up but make sure you come up for air from time to time as this healing+growing process can be all consuming.
Show up + Be Seen
as you set boundaries, not walls. Say yes and no with purpose, clarity, and intention instead of people pleasing, conflict avoiding, and reactionary fear.
Show up + Be Seen
as you fight the slippery slope of “group think” and “going along to get along.” The spotlight can be intense as you step away from living life based on what others think you “should” do, say, think. You are up for the challenge.
Show Up + Be Seen
as imperfect, true, glorious you. There is no one else on the planet just like you. Amazing. Simply Amazing.
How are you wanting to show up + be seen today as you seek to live the life you are called to live? What scares you the most about being seen?
PS – This post deserves inspiration thank you’s to:
the many men and women who have entrusted me with their hearts over the years who continually come to my office to show up and be seen no matter the challenges they were facing.
Brené Brown and Connections Partner Robert Hilliker. Thank you for being the Spark and the Torch Bearer, respectively, of this amazing work.
Another Valentine’s Day is here. At my house, there is an explosion of hearts: garland, paper, stickers, lights, plates, cookie molds, place mats, table cloths and more. It has been fun to celebrate love with the three people I adore the most on this planet and who are responsible for healing my heart+increasing its capacity to give and receive love.
But this day was not always a fun one for me. When I was in elementary school, I would measure my loveableness by comparing the number of valentine’s I received in my uniquely decorated tissue box and then comparing that amount with the booty my other classmates received.
In high school, I did not have a boyfriend (though I always had a crush or two) but would be privy to the elaborate date night plans my friends and their sweet hearts would make for this oh, so coveted of nights. It was fun to hear about all the fun ideas and caring gestures my friends would put together. Yet, behind my smiles and words of support, was a heart wanting to be seen + loved.
It was not Valentine’s Day for me. It was Vulnerability Day in neon lights.
Now, I am especially grateful for the people in my life day in and day out who show me continually what it means to be loved and feel loveable – even when I am far from that. I am thankful for a God who loves me in the fiercest of ways though that fact is so hard for my mind to comprehend in the noisiness of this world.
Yet, I am still keenly aware of how hard this day is for many.
It is salt on the wounds of loneliness, desire and longing.
This day can poke at the cumulative distressing life events stored in your heart+mind depleting your motivation to do what you need to care well for yourself. While I have seen EMDR help many experience healing from distressing events in their lives, I know safe and loving relationships are crucial for sustained healing.
So when I read Anne Lamott‘s Facebook post on Sunday, I was inspired. I also laughed out loud – because she has that way with her words – getting you to laugh about the most deeply painful experiences because she taps into what is shared by so many.
Here is an excerpt of her post:
I would estimate that approximately 17% of people enjoy Valentine’s day. Mostly, women will be given boxes of chocolates that they don’t want and can’t resist, and will be really mad at themselves for inhaling. Many people will be filled with resentment, anxiety, and guilt at having forgotten, or having shown up late, or having accidentally been having affairs with other people. Many people will feel a sheet-metal sense of loneliness and rejection. They will be comparing their insides with other people’s outsides, especially those happy valentines actors in advertisements and commercials.
Most of the day, except for the lucky few, will be a nightmare.
So let’s start an Occupy Valentine’s Day movement.
Let’s begin with the premise that another word for Valentine’s Day is Thursday. And on Thursday, as an act of radical self-care, we will celebrate the miracle that a few people love us SO much, that we can go on, and bear up, no matter what; that even though they know the darkest, most human and intimate and disgusting stuff about us, they still love us. In fact, they love us more and more through the years. This is so wild, and is really my only hope. It is what salvation looks like. A handful of friends is the reason my faith in God is so deep. Because they ARE love; they (along with the dogs) are my most obvious connection to divine love in this joint, the looks of love on their faces.
I think Anne is definitely on to something.
So let’s follow Anne’s lead and get all subversive on the current rituals and commercial imagery of Valentine’s Day. It is in need of a make over and I think we are up for the challenge.
If you are wrestling with feeling loved and finding meaning, please know you are not alone. Listen for the collective shout out’s rallying from those who are wrestling with their own heartache+despair. Look behind the masks of “I am fine.”, “It is no big deal.” and “Don’t worry about me.”
Hug. Write a note. Make that phone call. Send a text. Reach out. Listen.
Take the bubble bath. Wrap up in your cozy blanket. Listen to the music that evokes the emotions you are trying to numb out. Get outside and breathe in some fresh air. Let some sunshine radiate in on the darkness you are fighting.
I do not need a day to celebrate those in my life who love me regardless. But I agree with Anne Lamott: it is indeed a miracle to have their love. And that is what I am going to celebrate with extra care and intention tomorrow.
Who is the person you want to celebrate in honor of the love they have given you?
How are you going to show love and respect for yourself+others outside of the traditional hype tomorrow?